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BOOK REVIEW | "TEN WAYS NOT TO COMMIT SUICIDE" BY DARRYL MCDANIELS

2/17/2020

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it must be a special breed of curse to be celebrated for something that you felt little ownership of in creating. such was the case with DARRYL "DMC" MCDANIELS of the legendary NYC HIP HOP group RUN-DMC as detailed in his memoir TEN WAYS NOT TO COMMIT SUICIDE (AMISTAD, 2016) where he details how allowed a situation to foster where his voice was not respected or given attention, which led to drowning out his frustration in alcohol and long fugues of intense depression. his story is one of coming to terms with himself and establishing parameters in his life through the support of family.

speaking of family, one interesting aspect of this memoir is his coming to terms with learning that he was adopted as an adult. at first this was a cutting revelation that cut to the core of his identity, but over time he learned that he only gained a new family. with his voice in tatters due to an unusual congenital defect in his larynx and his relation with REVEREND RUN nonexistent, this new information freed him to learn about himself through advocacy and charitable work associated with orphans, adoptees and foster children.

for me what was interesting about this book was his self-expressed nerddom as a child being interested in reading and comic books and school. the RUN-DMC thing happened as a lark that turned into a career wavering to the expectations of record companies and yes-men that didn't have his interests at heart. the fact that HIP HOP stardom was something that got in the way of his original pursuits in college is beyond interesting.

ultimately he concludes that being of use to people and helping others is what he values in his life, not chasing fame or record sales or reality television. one other thing, REVEREND RUN comes off horrible in this memoir. he seems very much like someone focused on chasing money and uses those around him to that end. even his spirituality is called into question due to his association with a prosperity ministry which basically is made of televangelists using him for his clout with the urban community. makes sense but seems sad nonetheless that RUN would be so susceptible to being involved in such a cult. be apparently he is.

if you are a fan of DMC and appreciate brutally honest memoirs, the healing power of music, and the redeeming power of family, this book is certainly for you. if you like your nostalgic vision of classic RUN-DMC unscathed and untarnished, definitely look elsewhere.

DOUBLE-BILL DEER GOD RADIO TONIGHT AT 8PM EST ON MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC

1/19/2020

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tonight starting at 8PM on MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC there will be a double-bill of two separate DEER GOD RADIO episodes showcasing both the virtuosic, psychedelic bliss that is 1970s PROG ROCK and the lyricism, grit and legacy of SHAOLIN NYC HIP HOP legends WU-TANG CLAN.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST, THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW and CLASSICAL-ISH WITH NUTMEG are available here at the DEER GOD website.

and if you haven't done so already get the FREE PHONE APP for IOS/ANDROID and enjoy listening to MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC 24/7 at your convenience!

PROG ROCK

WU-TANG CLAN

"DEER GOD RADIO 62: BEASTIE BOYS" NOW AVAILABLE

12/17/2019

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check out HERE this recent streaming video episode of DEER GOD RADIO dedicated to NYC HIP HOP legends the BEASTIE BOYS with a special appearance by DOLLTITS member THERINA BELLA.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST, THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW and CLASSICAL-ISH WITH NUTMEG are available here at the DEER GOD website.

and if you haven't done so already get the FREE PHONE APP for IOS/ANDROID and enjoy listening to MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC 24/7 at your convenience!

"DEER GOD 62: BEASTIE BOYS" LIVE TONIGHT AT 6PM EST ON MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC

12/7/2019

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tonight's episode of DEER GOD RADIO at 6PM on MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC is dedicated to the BEASTIE BOYS, from their NYHC roots to their early involvement with DEF JAM and subsequent world domination. we will be paying our respects to a true NYC HIP HOP institution.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST, THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW and CLASSICAL-ISH WITH NUTMEG are available here at the DEER GOD website.

and if you haven't done so already get the FREE PHONE APP for IOS/ANDROID and enjoy listening to MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC 24/7 at your convenience!

DEER GOD RADIO 52: NYC HIP HOP" AVAILABLE NOW

9/22/2019

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click HERE for our most recent episode of DEER GOD RADIO dedicated to NYC HIP HOP.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST, and THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW are available here at the DEER GOD website.

"DEER GOD RADIO 52: NYC HIP HOP" LIVE TONIGHT AT 8PM EST ON MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC

9/15/2019

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tonight's episode of DEER GOD RADIO at 8PM on MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC is all about NYC HIP HOP. gonna be a fun show.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST and THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW are available here at the DEER GOD website.

SPOTLIGHT | ADAM YAUCH

6/22/2019

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i think for the public it can be difficult to witness public figures evolve over time, partly because their celebrity is some much a function of our collective mass projection. we see in them what we attribute to our better selves. if they change, what does that say about what we saw in them and by extension, what does that say about ourselves?

ADAM YAUCH of THE BEASTIE BOYS, much like ALDOUS HUXLEY, was a western public figure that explored eastern philosophies, namely MAHAYANA BUDDHISM. this fascination turned into a lifelong passion that redirected his life's trajectory in terms of his personal moral code, philanthropy, advocacy work and even his personal life.

his life is still interesting to me years after his death in 2012 from parotid cancer. this is in part because he seemed effortlessly authentic. you can listen to both the sexist attention-grabbing brat in "brass monkey" (licensed to ill, 1986) and the more thoughtful, reflective global musings on "bodhisattva vow" (ill communication, 1994) and come away with the full moral trajectory of a man and his evolution as a human being.

and i think that took courage. courage to counter your public image through action.

in our modern insatiably-manic digital click-bait culture where everyone has quick opinions and every discernible action seems to be part of a wider premeditated strategy with a future payoff in mind, it is hard to recognize humanity when we see it. it is hard to get past our jadedness. especially with public figures.

i dont see the life of ADAM YAUCH as something distinct and sanctified, this isnt a hagiography. i see him as a flawed human (like all of us are) that followed his path and used his platform to promote good will as he saw it and did what he could.

my hope is that i can see the same in others and not be so quick to question their motives, as i do whenever i hear of angelina jolie's UNICEF work or kanye giving his gaudy shoes to kids in uganda.

its a struggle. im working on it.

THROWBACK THURSDAY | HOLY MOE ON OPEN AIRWAVES

5/16/2019

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check out this interview and performance of "Where I'm From" by local STATEN ISLAND rapper HOLY MOE that was created as part of MAKERPARKRADIO's OPEN AIRWAVES grant initiative to promote upcoming local hip hop talent.

we were lucky enough to spend some time with HOLY MOE and his crew recently at our last DEER GOD RADIO show this past sunday and he is definitely on the move. some announcements will be forthcoming regarding future activities with the man. until then enjoy this performance.

"DEER GOD RADIO 27: LJ BEATS HIP HOP SELECTIONS" AVAILABLE NOW

2/18/2019

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Watch as LJBEATS and PLAINTAIN SUPERNOVA talk shop about modern NYC Hip Hop heavyweights like A$AP ROCKY, MAX B and FRENCH MONTANA as well as the influence of past MCs like BIG L, MOBB DEEP, DIPSET and DMX on the current scene.

This as well as all past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO are available here.

"DEER GOD RADIO 27: LJ BEATS HIP HOP SELECTIONS" TONIGHT on MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC

2/17/2019

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make sure to check out HERE house engineer LJ AVALOS and his friend JOSEPH ALEGRIA (a.k.a. PLAINTAIN SUPERNOVA) tonight as they take over DEER RADIO tonight at 8PM over at MAKERPARKRADIO.

They will dish on the current state of NYC HIP HOP.

past episodes of DEER GOD RADIO as well as other MAKERPARKRADIO.NYC shows like MAKE HER SPACE, NOWHERE FAST, and THE SYNTHESIZER SHOW are available here at the DEER GOD website.